I've been meaning to write this Filipina buddhist blog since I formally started the practice of buddhism in my life about 6 months ago.
Although, I think, even before so, I've already been practicing the art of observation way back since high school. Observation and introspection are one of the basic human practices. And I think I had to continuously introspect because I had to survive... because I wanted my situations and my life to be better.
But 6 months ago when I started to dip myself into the practice of meditation which I found out through Filipino Buddhists group in Facebook, the diary-like writing was supposed to journal my journey of meditation with Aro Meditation (http://aromeditation.org/). It's a free online course about meditation, and what I could expect while I meditate. I was supposed to journal my thoughts as to my perspective about meditation at that time, my experiences, frustrations, and moments of "enlightenments". However, due to my O-C-ness which could also be referred as Analysis Paralysis, I felt at that time I was telling myself, "Soon, I will have a perfect time, place, and space to write." Either that or I was just plain lazy and a procrastinator. Combine laziness and procrastination (and excuses, and tiredness, and stress) and you see me daydreaming and planning more than writing or doing anything else when I have a free time.
Aro Meditation is Tibetan buddhism. For me, I don't care which kind of buddhism I delve into. As long as it qualifies these 2 things: 1) It believes in the Buddha-mind; 2) Their teachings make sense to me.
So there I was, trying to "meditate" without journaling anything.
Thing about not journaling anything was that I don't get as far as I wanted to because there really is nothing to refer back to.
Our sentient minds (the ones who haven't yet been practiced that much, the ones who are used to watching telenovelas, and the ones who listen to music that are predictable), couldn't hold as much information and history as it supposed to. Thus, should we want to look back to our past because we wanted to compare or relate or learn from it, our sentient minds may not be as reliable as compared to the minds that are calm and has meditated a lot.
So, allow me to write on this blog and from hereon, share my thoughts, my blessings, my good karma to anyone who is also looking for someone who is also seeking the truth in the midst of many confusions of religions, spiritualities, and "lifestyles" in this thousand islands, the Philippines. Let me share this blog to you, who may be curious as to what buddhism is all about. I am not a technical nor a university scholar who would quote you in a highfalutin manner nor am I a seasoned / tenured buddhist. I am just a plain human being who is imperfect in many forms and shapes. However, everyday, just like you, I want to try to be a better person because I want to be happy everyday. I want to be a better person because I am tired of living a mediocre and boring life. I want to be a better person because I don't want to repeat the same mistakes my parents made.
I just want to be a better person... and I just want to be happier.
And I am sharing you my thoughts, and my time, because just like you... I came to a point in my life I was groping to find another Filipino / Filipina buddhist I could reach out and relate with, and probably find a community I could grow with.
And of course, aside from all those reasons, allow me to share this Filipina buddhist blog so that a month, two months, three months from now I will already be able to find something to go back to and compare my "me" now and by then. Fair right?
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